November 5

November 5
by Gabe Tseng

So, when they had come together, they began asking Him, saying, “Lord, is it at this time that You are restoring the kingdom to Israel?” But He said to them, “It is not for you to know periods of time or appointed times which the Father has set by His own authority; but you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be My witnesses both in Jerusalem and in all Judea, and Samaria, and as far as the remotest part of the earth.” – Acts 1:8

Waiting. I love certainty and I love when things go to plan, especially MY plan. Overthinking is my most favorite pastime and daydreaming about the future even more so. 

So when I read about how Jesus was risen and spoke and hung out with His disciples, it must have been a tremendous transformative fruitful time of not only ministry, but learning, and full-hearted friendship. THEIR FRIEND, their Rabbi, their Savior was dead! Now, they’ve picked up right where they left off at! And then Jesus tells them He’s leaving. This was surely NOT what they wanted, or expected. 

They were anticipating great things. I would. I love blessings, and abundant blessings at that. I love having enough money to not worry about spending or being generous. I love having friends who constantly affirm their love for me. And I love all the certainty and security that come when blessings are abundant in my life! 

As I hear Jesus’ words to His disciples, to wait to do anything, to wait for the Holy Spirit, it often challenges me to wait. I love to feel busy, to be accomplishing something. It feels good to see tangible results from my labor. And I am reminded often to wait, wait to move until the Holy Spirit prompts me. The Holy Spirit will often prompt me to “wait” or “be patient” rather than moving. Without Him I can do nothing. Feeling helpless, I am often eagerly waiting to move out of an uncomfortable silence or to shy away from a difficult conversation. It is in those moments, often with people, I feel the Holy Spirit prompting me to “listen” and to “wait.” I love to feel strong, powerful, and productive. 

My best intentions and best laid plans must be surrendered to Him because He knows better than I. He loves my children more than me and is infinitely more capable than me. In all I endeavor, I must, trust, or “faith” that His plans are better than mine. I may have great ideas, but if I look back and remember, His plans have always been better than mine.  

The heart of man plans his way,
    but the Lord establishes his steps. – Proverbs 16:9

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